Linkin Park
"My December"

is is my december
this is my time of the year
this is my december
this is all so clear

this is my december
this is my snow covered home
this is my december
this is me alone

and i
just wish that i didnt feel
like there was something i missed
and i
take back all the things i said
to make you feel like that
and i
just wish that i didnt feel
like there was something i missed
and i
take back all the things i said to you

and i give it all away
just to have somewhere to go to
give it all away
to have someone to come home to

this is my december
these are my snow covered dreams
this is me pretending
this is all i need

and i
just wish that i didnt feel
like there was something i missed
and i
take back all the things i said
to make you feel like that
and i
just wish that i didnt feel
like there was something i missed
and i
take back all the things i said to you

and i give it all away
just to have somewhere to go to
give it all away
to have someone to come home to

this is my december
this is my time of the year
this is my december
this is all so clear

and i give it all away
just to have somewhere to go to
give it all away
to have someone to come home to

Just finished 3rd season (finally XD) Thought I'd add this:

Hey there. It's Cat, posting for Elisabeth. As you all know she's in TX at her basic training right now. She requested that I post her address here, so that you all can right her many, many happy letters.  :3

Don't send any food or pornography or anything like that (seriously, I'm assuming they get in big trouble for that).

AB Braunfeld Elisabeth A
PSC2
324 TRS / FLT 040 Dorm B1
2220 Andrews Avenue Unit 362907
Lackland AFB, TX 78236 - 6029

SEND TEH LETTERS OF HAPPINESS!!  8D

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Don 't know why I'm posting this, no one reads my journal except kitty.  Anyway.... it was pretty creepy.  I don't think I've ever taken one of these quizes and gotten an answer like this before, I'm not even sure if I really want to post this but I guess I will anyway...


You are longing for a little love and tenderness. At present you are feeling very sensitive and need a sympathetic shoulder to lean on. You don't need any further stresses, strains or arguments so take a deep breath and relax.

Always anxious to accept the role of the leader, as indeed you often work well with people - but try to stay out of the limelight. You'd like a life of ease with no one to rock the boat and someone who understands you is so important in your life.

Everyone has to compromise at times and circumstances are such that at this time you are feeling the need to do just that. Put all of your hopes on the back burner and let matters flow for a time - forgo some of the things you want. The good times are just around the corner.

You pretend that you are a carefree individual and that nothing really bothers you - that you are so self-sufficient that whatever problems beset you they simply flow off you as water flows off a ducks back. You are experiencing considerable stress, trying to conceal yourself from the rest of the world. In actual fact - deep down, you are not at all happy. You feel lonely and you need someone with whom you can 'Let your hair down' and share your hopes, dreams and high standards. You are imposing unnecessary self restraint on yourself. You would like to demonstrate the unique quality of your character to all and sundry.

Sometimes one fears that its not worth formulating new ideas and projects because whatever you seem to have done in the past has never worked out and you are tired of, as they say, banging your head against a brick wall. No one seems to care. So now you are trying to get away from it all by withdrawing into a 'fantasy land' but unfortunately 'fantasy land' is just that and sooner or later you will have to return to reality so why delay the inevitable? When you do return, you will find that the situation is not as tough as perhaps you thought it was.

 

Why do people like hacked servers?  I mean, you can call it what you want but it's still hacked.  The people who make these games put a lot of time and effort into making them, and they try to make them challenging (because you know, part of being a real gamer is the challenges).  Oh and before I go any further I just want people to know that this isn't directed at any one person.  In fact I can think of *counts in her head* 4 people right now who are going to think that this is about them if they read this.  It's not, I work in a gaming department at Best Buy, so it's just one of those things I hear alot.

Anyway, back to the subject.  But seriously, why?  I don't see how it could possibly make the games more fun.  I mean... I'm sure people are going to tell me, "You level faster Elisabeth, that's why.  You become more powerful at a much faster rate."  No you don't.  Who are you people really kidding?  OMG you're leveling faster!  That's GREAT!  So is everyone else.  So no, you aren't more powerful, because to be MORE powerful, you have to have MORE people who are of less power than you, and hacked servers don't provide that.  If anything they make it harder to become more powerful.  Then there's the "You get more money, and more stuff!"  And the value of those this is... what?  Did you people pay attention in your economics classes?  Whenever there is more of something the value goes... which way class?  That's right children, it goes down.  

So basically, you guys are cheating (yes it's as much cheating as a Game Shark or Cheat Codes, hell even more so I think because you're cheating these developers out of their money).  Now I understand that people want to play these games, but may not necessarily have the funds.  Well there are hacked servers that offer normal leveling and drop rates out there if you're truly that desperate.  But then you still have the free games.  Not all of them are running around in a world either.  Hell, some of the best MMOs I've played are text-based because then you have to rp and use your imaginations.  Then there's just plain old rping.  There are TONS of groups on msn, yahoo, proboards, ezboard, all sorts of people who are there to rp.  

Now if you know this is cheating and you don't care, whatever, that's your life.  Personally I don't think you can honestly call yourselves gamers if you can't handle the grind for long enough to get to the good parts, but at least you aren't fooling yourself into thinking it's not cheating.  Grinding is always been there in video gaming, might not be the most fun part, but it's always been there along with the other mundane gaming quests we do.  Sure we love kicking pig Ganon's ass in Zelda, or finally working our way up to walking through that Dark Portal in WoW, or beating the Elite Four and being crowned the Pokemon Champion...  But are those things really fun if they're just handed to you?  If you hadn't had to track down those ugly ass faeries, or grind through a million and one quests for drops that should biologically speaking drop every time, or spent hours assembling and training your favorite team of monsters... would those games have really been fun?  Think of every game you have ever beaten, or accomplished something big in.  Would you have felt the same if you had been leveling 10x faster with a 20x higher money drop?  Would you have felt that proud of that moment?  Would you have been able to honestly feel like what you did, was actually done by you?  If you don't know what this feeling is that I'm talking about then I feel very sorry for you.  If you don't know what it's like to be moved to tears by a game then I hope that some day you are.  

If you people take nothing else from this probably by this point, annoyingly long rant...  I hope the few of you who do read this understand that gaming isn't knowing the most, "pwning", calling people "noobs", having the most systems, the most games, going to conventions, making games, or even beating them.  Gaming is a challenge.  Same way chess, basketball, soccer, Monopoly, Dungeons and Dragons, any game is a challenge, even if it's only against yourself.  Hopefully it's a fun challenge, but it isn't alway so.  And if challenging for you is only being able to make it halfway through a game then great.  If challenging is having you ass handed to you daily in pvp, awesome!  Because it's a step we all have to go through.  And while our parents, siblings, and co-workers probably think we're insane... it's something we enjoy, and are proud of.  And cheating just takes away from that feeling of pride.


That's pretty much it.  I'm sure some of you are going to get mad at me for saying all that but whatever.  Gaming is one of my many passions and I had to say my part on this matter.